Taysen started preschool...mommy started a diet!

So...Tate started preschool on monday (the 12th). I was a wreck! He cried and just gave me that look like "please mom dont leave me here, why are you doing this!?!" as I walked out the door. I felt horrible. All over again, I hated everything that was happening and I just wanted him to not have to go through this. He is just a baby! Anyhow, so I had a horrible day, visions of him crying and being scared and lonely danced through my head the entire day. He goes from 9am to 3pm on mondays and wednesdays. I had a horrible day. I pretty much counted the minutes until I could pick him up. I was there early and waited by the door, I couldnt wait to get him! Finally, when the door opened, Taysen came running to me and showed me a sticker he got with a huge smile on his face, he says " isa mat mat" lol...that would translate out to be "its a ribbit ribbit" LOL...he cant say ribbit...so mat takes its place. He was happy as a clam, wasnt crying, and wasnt in any distress at all. Come to find out, he only cried for a few minutes, did great throughout the day, ate and took a nap with the class with no problem, and even painted!! Taysen has some huge problems with wet/sticky things because of his sensory issues, and they said he didnt even put up a fight!! He had paint everywhere (I was wondering, have you ever heard of a smock!!) anyhow, it was even on his face! But he had fun, so I was really happy. Then on wednesday he went again...I was prepared this time for a little crying, but nope! He sat down at the table and ate his breakfast. I walked out the door and he says "Bye Mom!" :) I was so much happier on wednesday. I still couldnt wait to pick him up, but I didnt have a horrible day. :) Tomorrow is Martin Luther King day so he doesnt have school. But wednesday he goes back. It makes me happy that he is having fun.

Next! I started a diet on the 7th. I am really sick of being bigger. Im by no means "fat
, but to me, I am. Anyhow, my Wii Fit says Im overweight. Haha...which I am. I really havent gotten anywhere since I had Rowan on getting back to my prepregnancy body. Its sad that she is 16 months old and I still weigh about the same as I did the day after I had her. Its sad! Anyhow, I weighed like 155 after I had her. (That was like 2 days after I had her, so still some baby junk left in there that came off...) Anyhow I have weighed around 148 since. So I didnt even lose 10lbs. LOL...ok so it isnt funny. So anyways, I weighed 148 on the 7th...I weigh 143 now, so I have lost 5 lbs in 2 weeks. I wish it would all just come off in one day but obviously that isnt going to happen. Anyhow, Im hoping that by May Im down to 120-125. That is my goal. I havent had a gym membership in a year, so I am going to go renew it tomorrow, or tuesday if its closed tomorrow. I know I can work out at the gym at least 2 days a week when Taysen goes to school. Possibly a saturday and sunday too. Im going to make it a goal to work out at the gym at least 3 days a week, and I have an elliptical and the Wii Fit at home that I can use at least twice a week. So I can at least get in 5 work outs a week...Well my goal is at least the 3 days a week at the gym, the stuff at home isnt as important as the gym, because it just works better at the gym. Haha...anyways. I guess thats it for now...just wanted to put it in writing! :D OH and Im eating better too...trying to cut out the bad fats and sugar. Working on it...