A really bad day!

Ok so today sucked...and really really bad!

This morning started like every morning, the kids are both making little noises so I go take a shower while they wake up. I get dressed, make Taysen's breakfast and set it in the living room, make Rowan's bottle and set it on the couch. I go upstairs and get the kids Taysen in one arm, Rowan in the other. I set them both up on the island like I do every morning. Taysen sits playing with a toy while I change Rowan and get her dressed for the day. I put her in the Bumbo seat right next to us. Then I change Taysen and get him dressed. I go to set Taysen on the floor and halfway down I see Rowan roll right out of her Bumbo seat and off of the counter, and she lands on the tile floor. It happened so quickly I didnt even have time to react other than to scream. Immediately she starts screaming at the top of her lungs, which is totally a normal reaction to what just happened. I scoop her up and try to console her. Nothing is really working, she is flailing her arms and legs and practically purple from screaming so much. I take her into the sunporch to give her her bottle because if she ever bumps her head or gets scared, a bottle always makes it better. She stops crying right when the bottle goes in her mouth, so in my head I was thinking "Phew!' But she didnt even get two ounces down before she started screaming again. I called my friend Meredith that lives down the street to come watch Taysen, and I called my friend Robin to meet me at the ER so I didnt have to be there alone with Rowan. I hated the thought of even calling Josh because I just broke our child! But we both always put her in the Bumbo every day, and never once has she ever rolled out of it...never once has Taysen ever rolled out of it or even Hayden for that matter! Ive used it with all three of them. I never imagined that would happen to me. Anyhow, I called Josh and of course he wasnt mad, but wanted me to leave now. I told him to stay at work just incase she is just still shocked. I would call him as soon as I figured anything out. Anyhow, we get to the ER and I go straight up to the desk, they took us straight back. It seemed like we waited forever (maybe 5 or 6 minutes in reality...) until the doctor came in. They checked her out, and of course she is screaming the whole time. I notice that she screams the loudest when I switch her from one arm to the other, so they ordered a cat scan for her head and an Xray for her pelvis. The only bruise she had on her was on her elbow and she was moving both arms so we knew it wasnt an arm. Anyhow her cat scan came back normal and so did her pelvis. The doctor checks over her body again and she is still screaming. They just want us to wait for a little for her to calm down. So I laid down on the bed with her on my chest and she fell asleep. We were in there about 20 minutes or so and they came in and said that she is probably really sore from the fall and probably still really shook up. So even though in my head I really feel like they are wrong and something is not right because of how she was screaming, I go with the flow and sign the discharge papers. They told us to take our time getting her dressed so she isnt upset from us waking her up. So I laid her on her back on the bed, we talk to her for a few minutes while she gets out of the grogginess and play with her with her bear...she is laughing and giggling and being happy. She is moving her arms around playing and rolling a little to the side to see Robin, and stretches out her right leg. She is happy as a clam. Then I go to put her clothes back on and when I moved her left leg she starts screaming in pain. Robin and me both say that we are not leaving. I go get the nurse and I said something still isnt right. So the doctor comes back in, she is happy again since we arent moving her leg, so I move her leg for him so he can see how she is reacting. Finally someone is listening and he orders Xrays for her leg. She gets her Xray and I feel so bad because they are moving her leg all over to get the pictures. Not even 2 minutes after we got back in the room he comes in and tells me I was right. She broke her leg. Her left thigh bone (femur). Luckily, its right above her growth plate right above her knee and not on the growth plate itself, so she didnt need surgery and they think it should heal pretty quickly. She has a cast and looks so pathetic. Luckily her little attitude is pretty happy unless you are moving her, she is still pretty sore I imagine. Anyhow, I feel like a horrible mother. But at the same time, I never thought that would happen to me. And whats worse is its not like I set her on the counter and left the room, she was right in front of me, but it just happened to fast to even grab her. Anyhow, hopefully 2-6 weeks and she can get her cast off. It was a clean break so they dont think that it will take long for it to heal. Cross your fingers it doesnt. Now the kids never going to crawl since I broke her!Oh and one last thing, I threw away the Bumbo seat.